Breakfast: Pineapple Orange juice= about 225
Lunch: Pineapples= about 150
Dinner: Celery and dip= about 70 cals

total=about 445


today didn't go as well as planned... I woke up and weighed 104.5. After my volleyball practice i was 106.5 and i got really pissed cuz my starting point was 107 so what's half a pound? Anyway i just weighed myself again and i weighed 105.5. so it's not too terrible. That's how much i weighed last nite when i went to bed. So did i even lose anything today? ugh.... I was gonna go for a run today but i woke up all nauseas and dizzy and weak so there's no way i could go. I took these two little vitamins and that seemed to help a lot. But i'm still hoping tomorrow will be a lot!!!! better.

i'm kinda pissed. I use to be waaaayy smaller than my bff. All of the sudden she went from weighing 135 to 115!! But my weight keeps goin up cuz i'm careless and i keep tryin to convince myself that i look "healthy." 

You see, a lot of people use to say omg look at andrea she's so perfect! i wish i could have her body!" now people just say that i look "healthy."  Where in reality, i'm fat. I also don't compare myself to other people. I see what i can be at my best and other people think it's ridiculous. Just cuz i live in a world of people who are constantly gaining weight and the average sizes are growing larger and larger doesn't mean that i have to confom and continuously pig out and get fatter! I can stll be healthy at 90 pounds. Not everyone can, but i can. So people need to fuck off and quit telling me that i shouldn't be tryin to lose weight. I have my own personal goals and I intend on achieving them, regardless of who or what tries to get in my way.

hmmm...  well i haven't posted for a while cuz i broke my juice fast on the 8th day. : / i read up on it and i they say if u go like 7 days the first, 12 the next, then 15 and so on it'll get a lot easier. So today is the start of my 14 day juice fast. My bff is doing it with me so i'm really not gonna give up. My starting weight this time is 109... i know... i'm a pig and i binged on carbs for like two days straight after i got down to 103 but whatever.. it's 6 pounds i lost 6 pounds in the first two days last time so i'll be back down to 103 by monday nite :))))))

ok.. well today started out good.. then ugh idk what happened.. i totally binged :(((((((((((

Breakfast: nothing
Lunch: 20 cal water fruit juice 
Dinner: grapes=60
2 glasses of pineapple orange juice=240
mac and cheese=360
3 cookies.. idk but that's too many... 

total= 680 plus : /

i feel awful... y did i eat that much? i'm supposed to be on a fast... well whatever.. i'm gonna keep going with the fast anyway and i'll just have to work out and make up for and extra 1000 cals. and i'll be fine... hopefully :(((((

soo for yesterday....
Breakfast:juice box =80 cals
Lunch: juice box & half a cup of pineapples=140 cals
Dinner: sonic cranberry juice=170

Toal: 390 cals 

yesterday was ok... volleyball practice didn't burn off too many cals but oh well... i'm not supposed to be working out on this diet cuz it supposedly makes you more weak. hmm i think i'm gonna start doing leg, ab, and arm workouts tho. cuz i need to firm up. hmmmm

Day 3
Breakfast: nothing
Lunch: nothing
Dinner: Red Lobster ceaser salad=260 cals

ok so i'm still on my juice fast thing and i guess i kinda broke it today... i had no choice tho.. i had a big family dinner and we went to red lobster. but i was thinking, the salad was only 260 cals and my 3 glasses of pineapple orange juice is 360 cals. soo i guess that makes me ahead rite? :) it was really hard tho cuz they put out their buscuits and those smelled amazing! Oh and my lil cousin ordered the huge chocolate cake cuz him and i usually share it. I didn't have one bite :)))))))) it took soooooooooo much self control tho! but now i c that i really can do this! so i'm super excited and i can''t wait til day 30! now i really wanna weigh myself.. but i still have 5 days til i said i would. oh well whatever. we'll c. anyway i'm off to bed :)